Saturday, March 30, 2013

Mis-Everything

Have you ever wonder why? Have you ever been so lost?
Have you ever feel so hollow?
Have you ever feel sometimes you want get out from your life,
and being in someone else life?

FUCK, I don't know what I'm supposed to feel now.
Kekadang tu rasa marah sangat, tapi tak boleh nak marah.
Rasa nak menangis, tapi tak mampu menangis.
Menangis dalam hati je.
Rasa nak cakap semua yg aku rasa, tapi kata2 tak terluah.
Rasa macam robot pun ada.. 

Faking smile like a pro, so tired of faking smile everyday.
HAHAHAHA,I'm so funny.

Hanya mampu meluahkan di Twitter, tapi tak mampu nak mengeluarkan suara.
I guess Twiter has been only friend, through the rise and fall.
I can't explain why I love Twitter so much. It's always there for me whenever I feel sad, alone, angry, happy.. Bla bla.. Sometimes I wonder, can anyone take the place of Twitter in my heart?
Sometimes I feel it's just not enough to express everything less than 140 characters,
that's why I'm here. Utk meluahkan ketidakpuashatian aku terhadap diri sendiri.
I feel so stupid, I feel so lost. I'll never be good enough.

Arghhh.. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm saying, I don't even know where's my mind wandering and what the fuck my heart worrying.

Sometimes, situasi yg membuatkan kita rasa DOWN sangat.. I hate that feeling. Just like me.
Bil 55 sen boleh terbayar RM55. SYABAS bagi bil 55sen je, blergh..
Rasa rugi gila RM54.45 tu.. Aku tak boleh nak marah, sebab mmg salah aku tak tengok betul2..

I hate it when I can't control my emotions, but my emotions can easily control me. It's feels like ASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM.
It's not because of RM54.45 letting me so down. It's just why does bad things always happened to me?????? I'm so tired, don't know how to feel anymore. Don't know who my real friends are anymore... I don't even know how to ___________ anymore..